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It's that not-so spectacular time of year, between winter and spring, when my muse flips me off and walks out. I hear about people who suffer from seasonal disorder (winter downs), usually during winter. Me? It's always between the seasons. I'm okay between summer and fall. Autumn to winter is the very best time for me. But winter to spring hits me like a boomerang and it takes almost a month for me to climb out of the artistic graveyard.
It's not just writing that's affected. Oh no, I'm not that lucky. My interest in almost everything falls off the planet. I can't draw, can't paint, can't read and nothing on TV interests me. :faint: This is depression-my depression-at its lowest. I've grown clumsy, my sleep patterns are screwed up and I can't concentrate on anything.
It's difficult to wade through this time of year. I'm one of those weirdos who feels she has to be constantly doing something. Accomplishment is success to me. It might be that part of the dilemma is I haven't been out walking. I miss that. This winter has been especially cold, as anyone here in the Snow Belt can tell you. One night the temps hit -29 F. Not kidding. That's effing cold to me; never been in Missouri where it's sometimes reported to hit -40 F. I like the winter. Really, I do. It's just that -40, is the point at which your hair freezes up and falls out, your nipples turn into deadly weapons and you have to stick your head into a microwave to thaw your face. Not exactly my idea of a good time.
Lack of accomplishment leaves me with a sense of guilt; nothing's getting done. I am mortal and I want to finish something before I die. So that guilt turns into frustration. No, I don't want to watch TV. No, I don't want to read-oh that's another matter of late.
I've worked very hard over the years to be the very best writer I can be. I've studied techniques and taken a few courses and the one course I've taken-journalism-has sharpened my skills as a writer like a katana. (whoa! spellchecker doesn't know what a katana is! >.<) It's awesome knowing how to write in such a way that every word counts; there's no baggage in the sentences. However, no one warned me that learning how to do so will make it difficult to read other people's work. I'm a picky reader to begin with but knowing how to drop helping-verbs and prepositional phrases and the like has made me into the critique from hell. For example:
 "I tried to forget what Ma Sinclair had said. Conal was already too careful, too nervous for my taste; I almost yearned for a decent bar brawl to brighten up my life." (excerpt from Gillian Philip's Firebrand)
It reads just fine, really. Any college English teacher would let this pass with flying colors. BUT "... had said" is a helping verb. All that the writer needed to use was "...what Ma Sinclair said."  The other one: "... brighten up my life." The preposition "up" is not necessary. Does anything 'brighten down'? Where is the sun? where are light fixtures located? usually above us, right? So "up" is just an unnecessary word.
So I want to read but I can't turn off the English professor in me. It too is frustrating. My inner critic is having a field day. sometimes said critic tries to nag at me with my journal writing. I tell it off; free writing doesn't count.
I am considering using the time neither drawing nor writing to work on the house. I have pictures and photos to hang, a carpet that needs shampooing. All the while, my inner critic will yell at me that I need to get some writing done; that I have readers waiting for the next story.
I wonder how much it'd cost to mail an inner critic to the Antarctic. It can bitch at the penguins there. :plotting:
  • Mood: Stuck
  • Listening to: music
  • Reading: Inside the Criminal Mind
  • Watching: the clock
  • Playing: SPN playlist
  • Eating: fish and rice
  • Drinking: iced tea


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TL Arens
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United States
Current Residence: Ohio
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Print preference: Comic Sans
Favourite genre of music: Ambient, Techno (progressive), Heavy Metal, Space, New Age
Favourite photographer: Ansel Adams, Clewtician
Favourite style of art: Animation, pop art, fractals
Operating System: My mind
MP3 player of choice: Windows Media
Shell of choice: Chocolate
Wallpaper of choice: Optimus Prime ;)
Skin of choice: Alien GT3
Favourite cartoon character: Optimus Prime, Koontah
Personal Quote: Persistence conquers all

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redconvoy Dec 8, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Happy Birthday! 1st Emoticon: Happy Birthday 
Koontah Dec 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:D :D :D Thank you! That was very thoughtful!
redconvoy Dec 23, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You're welcome :D 
VixenUnicorn Nov 29, 2013
hi auntie
Koontah Dec 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Hi, m'love, I'm sorry I have not gotten back to you. (((((uber hugs))))) :glomp: I've seen your photos and I enjoy how you experiment with them. Such a pretty girl! Are you sure you're her? ;)
VixenUnicorn Jan 1, 2014
lol yes im her i wouldnt take false pictures lol  i miss you so much 
VixenUnicorn Nov 16, 2013
XD hi Tam its me Cheyenne XD
Koontah Dec 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:glomp: :hug: :turbopoke: :D :D Missing you, Sweetie! I hope you're doing okay!
Read this please. Tell me what you think about this an introduction to artists. There will be a link to complete details that they can print out.

I am looking for artists that would like to contribute to our websites. In return your art will be featured at our booth during Comic Con 2014 San Diego with your contact information. (Artist may also elect to have their original art pieces sold at our booth.)
The link for selling your art on DeviantArt will be included in your website submissions.
Contributors to our websites blog entries or art will be eligible to attend all Comic Con conventions as a professional after one year of contributing. Comic Con required that use your real name on blog entries and sign all pieces submitted to the websites.
Click on link to read complete details or you may contact me by email or phone for more information.

To be kind I am not going to add a drawing to this comment.
Koontah Apr 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
... It took me a moment to realize this is for your website. :) I'd like to suggest you entail what type of artwork you're looking for-and add boundaries for the sake of appropriation. Will those who contribute need to attend the convention itself? And how will you feature the artwork? Will it be on a monitor as part of a slideshow, or will you use hardcopies/prints of the artwork and post them on the booth walls?
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