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There are certain gateways into the human conscious which should seldom open. I suppose every writer encounters a part of that self where morbid curiosity rises. Take a peak but do so with caution. Writing is a journey, not a destination. As a writer, if you are not going places and learning things, you're not really trying to be a writer. If you write but have nothing to say, no experience to share, you are not writing. Take your work off, or wherever else you may post it and try again.

As I finish "Croix Insepency" I am forced to delve into those things kept in the dark; things that skirt at the edges of an artist's mind. There is darkness in some of those places. There is a darkness that smiles back at you and you know without a doubt that it tempts and calls and waits for your attention. I speak of the macabre, of the disturbing; images that hint of the sinister. Such writers as H.P. Lovecraft, Harlan Ellison and Stephen King breathe in that darkness and blow it across our minds.

It's okay to shiver. It's okay to wince as you are touched by the devilry of the human soul. If you did not bat an eye, then someone should be concerned for you.

When I started writing a techno-horror for my Transformers fanfiction, I did not think I had the ability to pull it off successfully. I am not a horror fan-or rather, I never watched or read anything of the genre. But upon my first draft of *Silent Scream* I found a power I did not know I had. And yes, I boast of a power, the ability to take a reader to a dark place and let them breathe in the specter of nightmares. From there I wrote "Testament" and then I took the plunge and wrote "Devil's Dance".  What is this side of me that is fascinated by such things? To be certain, there is no sunshine in the eyes of monsters. There is no light-hearted laughter framing the shadows of things dredged up from the swamps of the human soul. The cold valleys of imagination are more of an expanse of quick-mud that drags the mind into the fiery bogs of hell.

I realize it might sound funny, that I'm using hyperbole to describe some of the things that I have imagined and seen. No. Not when I have imagined a place where creatures-people-are used as test animals. I have stepped into a place far, far from anything near a sun. I have seen things that I never thought I'd formulate on paper. Croix Insepency has handed me a photograph of things I have either denied within me or of things for which I fear to reveal. So I ask myself why it was necessary to take this road. Why did I choose to darken my canvass with such disturbing things?

I think it's to face fear itself; fear of the dark, fear of pain, fear of the rot and stench of death. I think we walk along the razor's edge of the macabre to look at our nightmares rather than wake in bed, screaming. We want to believe these things, this darkness, is not real. We don't want to openly discuss it. But it comes out in artwork, music, writing, sculpture... whatever other form of expression humans use. Is it a form of exorcism? Is it a source of personal reflection? Or is it, perhaps, a form of worship?

Everyone has to answer for themselves. As for me, I looked into the face of that dark to measure my strength against it. I have found that, yes, I can look at it without screaming and running away. I can taste the stilted air of the disturbing and the somber. But it is not a place in which I would choose to dwell.

If you plan to visit that darkness, don't stay too long. Such darkness must be controlled and contained or it will spread.
  • Mood: Distracted
  • Listening to: the air conditioner
  • Watching: my spelling and grammar
  • Playing: story scenarios in my head
  • Drinking: iced tea


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TL Arens
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
Current Residence: Ohio
deviantWEAR sizing preference: whatever looks good
Print preference: Comic Sans
Favourite genre of music: Ambient, Techno (progressive), Heavy Metal, Space, New Age
Favourite photographer: Ansel Adams, Clewtician
Favourite style of art: Animation, pop art, fractals
Operating System: My mind
MP3 player of choice: Windows Media
Shell of choice: Chocolate
Wallpaper of choice: Optimus Prime ;)
Skin of choice: Alien GT3
Favourite cartoon character: Optimus Prime, Koontah
Personal Quote: Persistence conquers all

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redconvoy Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Happy Birthday! 1st Emoticon: Happy Birthday 
Koontah Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:D :D :D Thank you! That was very thoughtful!
redconvoy Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You're welcome :D 
VixenUnicorn Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013
hi auntie
Koontah Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Hi, m'love, I'm sorry I have not gotten back to you. (((((uber hugs))))) :glomp: I've seen your photos and I enjoy how you experiment with them. Such a pretty girl! Are you sure you're her? ;)
VixenUnicorn Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2014
lol yes im her i wouldnt take false pictures lol  i miss you so much 
VixenUnicorn Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2013
XD hi Tam its me Cheyenne XD
Koontah Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:glomp: :hug: :turbopoke: :D :D Missing you, Sweetie! I hope you're doing okay!
DoctorWhoUS Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2013
Read this please. Tell me what you think about this an introduction to artists. There will be a link to complete details that they can print out.

I am looking for artists that would like to contribute to our websites. In return your art will be featured at our booth during Comic Con 2014 San Diego with your contact information. (Artist may also elect to have their original art pieces sold at our booth.)
The link for selling your art on DeviantArt will be included in your website submissions.
Contributors to our websites blog entries or art will be eligible to attend all Comic Con conventions as a professional after one year of contributing. Comic Con required that use your real name on blog entries and sign all pieces submitted to the websites.
Click on link to read complete details or you may contact me by email or phone for more information.

To be kind I am not going to add a drawing to this comment.
Koontah Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
... It took me a moment to realize this is for your website. :) I'd like to suggest you entail what type of artwork you're looking for-and add boundaries for the sake of appropriation. Will those who contribute need to attend the convention itself? And how will you feature the artwork? Will it be on a monitor as part of a slideshow, or will you use hardcopies/prints of the artwork and post them on the booth walls?
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